October 2011
1 post
too much
theres too much running through my mind, im a piece of shit, i can’t make up my mind anymore about anything, i second guess evreything, i retreted into an unbreakable shell, fuck growing up, too bad i cant stop, i need those feeling agian, it was a better life then, wishing you had a job and your own place, and to move, its better dreaming, then actually do it
September 2011
6 posts
when i close my eyes all i can see is OUR furute...
thoughts suck
Honestly i feel depressed, i wanna relapse, I wont, i cant, but the feeling is there, so much shit has been going on evreythign is stressing me out, i cant handle all of this, the worst thing is the alone feeling, talking to you helps but when your gone its ju7st to much to bare, i love you soo much more then you will ever know, i cant wait till i can see you agian, but untill then ill be having a...
the truth is...
the truth is i cant live without you, there’s no way i could start my day without that first text from you, all’s it says is either good mourning or i love you, but its more important then the mourning cigarette or coffee, i need it to have a good day., i love you so much, and i dont wanna even imagine life without you, id be reduced to nothing, a vessel without a soul, you make me who...
nostalgia- a longing for aspects of past life
im not same person i was a year ago, so much has changed, and i gotta be honest, there things i really miss, i used to go out every day, smoke drive fast in vehicle hang out with good friends every day, not give a fuck who cared what i was doing, party and just have fun, i feel like im actually growing up, and i dislike it, i want to fight it, but i already know it inevitable, there’s so...
RUN AWAY WITH ME
leave it all behind, escape the bullshit, and just live, we can love each other forever, or drown in this sorrow, and fear, uhhh, i wanna tell you soo badllyyy how much i wish youd say fuck it and run, and be happy, instead we get to be missreble and hope things work out, i dont like that because theres no guarantee of hapiness, and because you just prove more and more, youll always let your mom...
i need it agian, the poision, it seeps into my veins and makes evreything better, i fuckling miss you , i i just wanna od and leave this place, the needle will be my tool and the black liquid my savior, i need that pinch to push the button to deliver the magic, that takes it all away, makes evreything better,
August 2011
2 posts
“i feel a tiny poke, i see the blood rush into the needle as i pull back, and in...”
i miss you mom
dear mom,
I remember when you used to run me a warm bath when i was sick so i could sit in there and feel better, you would always check and make sure i was ok, i remember when we used to go to Florida every summer to the time share, and go to the water park leaky tiki. i remeber when i rode too far ahead of you on my bike when i was 6 or 7 and you got so worried and called the cops, i...
July 2011
2 posts
thoughts of a paraniod enigmatic brain
who would honestly miss me if im gone? im up all the time at night, cursed with not being able to stop thinking, i miss my mom, i hate my father, i dont know about the people around me, my friends dont talk to me anymore, am i just not good enough for people? the only one to seem to care is my wonderful fiancee, and even then i sometimes wonder, im in love with her, im tired of not being able to...
““I guess in the end, all I have is myself.
And I don’t even want...”
June 2011
3 posts
“I know what me last thought will be before i die… I love you”
– Annonymous
I miss you more then you can ever know
Some times when i lie down to sleep at night, i cant help but cry a little knowing that my very bones are missing your touch, and when i think about you through out the day, i think of you in colors that do not exist, i want to scream, i miss you so much, i want to hold you, i want to kiss you in public, i wanna hold your hand, i want to tell you all the things that cross my mind, i want you to...
